Shirley's Update

Well, many months have gone by since I wrote My Initial Experience - about 18 to be exact. What has happened to me since then? Here's a very brief catch up.

I spent 4 months last winter in Hawaii living with Bunny and Jane "in community" and working intensively on my healing. As part of that, I finally "let go" within myself of the need for the relationship I had been struggling with for some time. It seemed that no sooner had I actually done that than the man in question called me in Hawaii. The result of that was that he came to Hawaii for two weeks and in a whirlwind of events, was introduced to Psychology of Vision work and "A Course In Miracles". At the end of that time we chose to commit to each other and we have been together ever since. We both study "ACIM" and consciously work on our relationship using it as our path to mutual healing.

I won't say it has always been easy. I won't say that I am healed and that my life is a straight, nicely paved, trouble free road. What I will say is that everything is different. I have resources within myself for the first time that I can call upon when the going gets tough. I used to have defenses I could call upon that got me through but they didn't bring me lasting happiness. Now I am aware of those defenses and how they kept me separated. I believed I was unlovable and I was unconsciously determined to prove it. The difference is that though there is still a part of me that believes that I am unlovable, I know that that part of me is mistaken and I can gently move on from there into a more true place.

There is much more that I could say but for now suffice it to say?I completely support the work that Bunny and Jane are doing. I am very grateful to them for the role they played in helping to change my life. Three years ago, I never would have believed that I would be where I am now. One thing I know for sure is that all it takes is willingness to have your life be different. If you are truly willing, get ready! The fun is about to begin!

To read about Shirley's Initial Experience of working with Bunny and Jane.

Enjoy Shirley's first poem How I Am Unlovable, Let Me Count The Ways

To share in Shirley's Experience of Community Living.