Broken Car Window Leads To Transformation

Last month I had reached the end of my rope, so to speak. I had spent literally years and years wandering aimlessly from job to job, relationship to relationship, and place to place, never able to find anything that worked for me, that felt fulfilling, that brought me any continuity, happiness or joy.

A full-time resident of Parker Island for less than two years, already I was asking myself, "What am I doing here?". The relationship which for the past four years had brought me at least as much pain as it had happiness was in crisis again-the worst yet-a crisis our so-called partnership seemed unlikely to survive. I did not have any idea how I was going to resume earning my living on this remote island I now call home. I had had enough of this! I made up my mind that I was going to do whatever it took to find out why I couldn't get my life together and I was going to look for whomever it took to help me do it.

Of course, this wasn't the first time I had tried to find some answers....I had been searching for the past twenty years, reading self-help books, seeing various counselors, and going to all kinds of classes and workshops. I had certainly made progress but not enough to make a significant difference. This time I decided healing would have to be my first priority. Where to go for help! Well, I would just keep trying anything that came my way until I found something that worked for me. I made an appointment with a counselor whose name I found in the phone book and on the designated morning set off to a Montague rendezvous with my car. There I discovered that one of it's windows had been smashed and shattered glass was everywhere.

As I stood there surveying the damage, a neighbour from Parker Island came over to greet me. After saying hello she looked at my broken window and said "Could mean something in your subconscious mind is trying to get out. If you want to work on that, I could give you a session. Where are you off to anyway?"

Shocked, I replied "Well, as a matter of fact, I'm on my way to see a counselor because there is something going on in my subconscious mind that is trying to get out.."

My neighbour then repeated her offer and I went off to keep my appointment with the counselor. It was a nice session. Nothing I didn't already know came out of it but after all what can one expect in one session. I would give it a chance. Still, considering the circumstances of the offer, I decided to give my neighbour a try as well.

We made an appointment for the following day and during that two hour session, hell quite literally broke loose. I easily got in touch with a deep loss that I had suffered and closed the door on some 40 years before, unconscious decisions I had made about myself that have brought me heartache and heartbreak all my life. I went home feeling lighter, happier and more hopeful than I have for a very long time.

Since then we have had several more sessions. Each one has brought me a deeper understanding and acceptance of myself and a deeper realization of how I have created for myself all that I have at this moment whether I consciously think I want it that way or not. There is still much work to do but my progress has been rapid and relatively easy, in many areas including my partnership and life purpose.

My neighbour, Bunny Sjogren, has been working on healing herself and others with Reiki and massage for the past 30 years and for the past four years she has been studying under Dr Chuck Spezzano who developed "Psychology of Vision" using the principles from "A Course in Miracles". Bunny is convinced, and now I am too, that Dr. Spezzano is right when he says that this method of exploring our minds can save us untold amounts of pain, time and money and will assist us in enriching our relationships and in finding happiness and fulfillment.

Bunny has been dreaming of sharing this work with others in a residential setting on Parker Island. Since she is so beautifully helping to change my life I am eager to share this opportunity with others. I am offering three workshops by her in October....two weekend retreats on Parker and a day-long benefit workshop on Galiano. If you too suspect you have something going on in your subconscious mind that needs to get out, or if you would simply like to have more happiness, more prosperity and/or more love in your life, consider joining us for one of these events.

In closing I would like to share with you a poem I wrote for one of my "homework" assignments. It is, in fact, the first poem I have ever written as we didn't write poetry at school in my days. (The third verse refers to a time in my life many years ago when I worked as an assistant in a residence for physically handicapped people. )